Below are the 15 most recent journal entries recorded in nevvy_z's LiveJournal:

Saturday, May 7th, 2005
3:48 am	random update got to talk to shawn today. There is no better way to wake up than talking to shawn. The best way is with her next to me, but having her call and talking for two hours on the phone is a very close second. It occurs to me that I'm a very lonely drunk, and I dont like it. Its not a sex thing, its just if ive been drinking i get lonely. Saturday night was awesome because it was a huge break from that. Hopefully ill get another reprieve before I sink back into the shitty pit. I have a good time drinking and hanging out. But then I come up and sit and have no one at all, and i start to hate it. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
7:20 am	UPDATE I dont update much. Only when things are seriously on my mind and i have to get them off. This is the general things are cool update. Spring is here. I dont give a shit about the kelly shit, now it is lovely and nice out and I am genereally happy. Kelly got mad at me the other day because I had my arm around Erin's sister. Not yet 20, shes 17, so shes well within rule of thumb range, and nothing happened anyway because even though she was cool and f-ing gorgeous, she is my friend's little sister. Having a girl that cool cuddling a bit with me was good for my self confidence, and kicked my awesome mood up another notch. Life is peachy. Need to call Kara, havent talked to her in ages, and Shawn. If you read this I miss you both dearly. Time to study. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
11:03 pm	Damn Finals are over. I got raped on physics, which was a low point. Finding a party tommorrow night htough, and getting trashed as fuck. Then i get to go home and spend some time with jon and katie. Get away from here for a bit. Thatll be nice. I can chill with Carly and Amanda, smoke up with Ozzy, and finally have some money in my pocket again. And no more of this stupid shit here. Then it will be spring, and I can go to poetry, and go out in general, and get away from the shit here that bothers me, because its getting really fucking old, and ive been to stressed out by other shit to want to deal with it anymore. So fuck it, im tired of caring and hoping, fuck that. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
11:05 pm	GAH finals Finals are coming, im kind of stressed. Jon dumped kelly, shocker. Shes sad and I wish I could cheer her up. At least i dont have to see them together and shit. Now I just need to meet a girl, that way if they get back together I can more easily resist the urge to murder johns face with a stabbity knife. He doesnt deserve her. She may not like me, but nonetheless I dont want to see her end up with him, niehter of them deserve it. He doesnt deserve her in general, and she doesn't deserve the stupid shit he puts her through. (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
4:14 am	same shit nevermind (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 9th, 2004
2:06 am	Furries Their hate is like a Bonsai? so its really small and expensive, and a huge waste of time? God I love this shit. Making fun of furries is great. It makes people laugh, its easy as hell, and theres just so much material that they willingly provide that it never really gets stale. YIFF YIFF faggorts. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
5:07 am	cracked out [img]http://wtfomfg.org/gallery/albums/cpgoonmeet04/IMG_1274.thumb.jpg[/img] (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
11:53 am	... i dont know why you feel the need to sit and get mad at me about soemthing that happened a month and a half ago, but when your ready to grow up and accpet my appalogy, ill still be here. what are friends for? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
1:22 am	I think i think to much Im just having a hard time dealing wtih this sudden evil turn of events, sorry... ill be ok, just deal with my chaos unitl then please (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 6th, 2004
4:04 am	Life is a whore Yeah, I believe in karma, but I don't remember knife-raping any retarded nuns This just sucks of late. I saw Kristen, and it's still depressing. So many unresolved issues. Made Springfest go from cool to fuck it I dont care. Then there's the end of school, which I am looking forward to, yet I dread it. I've gotten used to things here, and I do like it here. I am going to miss it, and Shawn is going back to Buffaloo, which sucks a lot. We have become pretty good friends, since we did date and all its not surprising, and I am most pleased that we ended up being perfectly able to stay good friends after, I wasn't expecting that, so it makes her leaving suck more. I'm not going to get to see Kara, which is the shittiest shit to ever shit, the anvil that broke the camels fucking back as they say. What can I say, I love all my friends a whole helluva lot, shawn, kristen, amanda, but Kara is a whole different level. Kara is one of my two absolute favorite people in the world, I still love her with my whole heart (I love a lot of people... stupid emo-y me) and we just started talking again. So I am reminded of how great she is right before I lose her for good. getting to spend the summer with katie is the only thing i have to look forward to, and I am looking forward to it, a whole lot, even though I know she is interested in me, and I absolutely love her, and it scares the living bejeezus out of me, but all of this over hte past few days... plus studying, yeah this sucks right now. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
3:09 am	lala wrote an update got erased fuck tl;dr-get to hang out iwth shawn yay, going to have fun summer (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
9:20 pm	Life Ive said it before and ill say it again everything nice that happens is all just a great big buildup for a great big letdown the only reason anything good happens to me is so that i can be hurt later fuck that shit now song quotes "Have you ever seen an angel I know I have Say they'll stay here for a while then they fly away." " How many times will it take me? Before I go crazy Before I lose everything Something burning deep inside Ran into three puerto ricans These girls took me to the funhouse I don't want to be alone again" theres nothing i can do and it sucks i know ill get through, ive dealt with worse but i hate when life does this stupid bunch of shit (Comment on this)
Monday, May 3rd, 2004
10:29 pm	UPDATE! 1 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
3:13 am	First journal yay so yeah i got a live journal i needed a new bitching space about everything since melissa and them all have one i figured why not, then i can link to them and not have to put any real effort to get to their diaries good place to bitch about whatevers bugging me, or happy things lets see, i told rachel that there can be no drunken hookups, or hookups in general, it was funny because craig scared her by teling her he loved her way to fast, but she kept on about how she felt about me, and it was like "wtf mate?" shes awesome, well probably keep chilling, play soul cali and stuff katie was disapproving when she heard about it, and nothing means more to me then what katie thinks, because im an emo dork i need to remember to talk to melissa, to make sure she knows i cant be up to any shenanigans with her either, especially before i link her to this, because she was definately interested in me, but i dont know how much, and as much as she is awesomely cool, i dont really like her, and i need to avoid thing remotely remembering relationships for a little while, i tend to fuck things up when they happen on rebounds, and i cant even tell if im rebounding anymore, or from what i definately asked cara out back then as a result of me rebounding off kristen it was tearing me up how close kristen and i had been, and then she says she cant date me because joe was crazy, but she didnt want to date joe so joe flipped and she decided fuck joe i wont not date people for him, and starts liking casey yeah.. thanks for leaving me hanigng, and of course she starts talking to me about kasey problems so i ended up asking out cara, and everyone knows how that turned out so now im scared because in the time since ive seen katie a lot, and i love katie with all my heart, always have, hell back when i was dating; wait that never happened; i would leave to go home and call katie, shes my best freind, so now im afraid somehting bad will happen, but that wont stop me from coming to see her muy mucho weve reached a mark, ive hung out with her 10 times officially now, kinda funny cuz shes been my best freind for 2 years and 5 of the times, maybe even six were in the last 5 months, nov?/dec/jan/feb/marchx2 her birthdays on the 15th, and im coming home to take her to see the vacancies play with manda and the marbles (OMG OMG OMG OMG FreAKOUT OMG OMG SUCH A GOOD SHOW OMG) its funny because recently weve been more open about how we feel about each other, were the best of freinds, but neither of us were comfortable expressing how much we cared, were silly emo dorks together ive been making incarnations of these since a while ago, its fun and im making her a new cd, almost entirely new songs now that ive got seven hundred billion new music in my comp i just found a rancid song, and a couple cheesy artaris songs, and this billy joel song thats so cute i almost cried shes making me leave moondance, earwig, and a few others though ooh and stepahnie came to see me but she doesnt update her LJ anymore she brought princess and him and ben totally hit it off, it was funny, we were like "aww theyre freinds how cute" and she and i had a righteous good time being teh silly fools we are, im going to have to go otu to visit her during the summer now, i forgot how much fun she is ooh and ive decided im getting a motorcycle liscence and a bike this summer itll only take me a few weeks of target work to be able to afford a decent one, and having one would be k-rad so welcome to my LJ, ill make it pretty and put my interests and friends and shit on later, im going to go wander my forumses a bit before bed peace (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 11th, 2001
3:18 am	NEVAR FORGET! Im ordered to update by shawn i had the most awesome weekend i hung out with shawn on thursday, which was just damn good times and then friday i went home and lakewood was fucking dead a fucking ghost town bens in his room with his gf right now, go ben, i wonder if theyre keeping brad up and i got to see katie w00t w00t i love katie, shes my best freind this summer were gonna go on motorcycle adventures whee! me and shawn watched fight club but according to my roomates we had 2 hours of hot sex, so go me also matt wa like "who is that" when he saw the hot picture she took of herself for her friend, and she sent me a copy and now its my desktop, Current Mood: pleased (2 Comments |Comment on this)